I thought I would share this blog i wrote wit u guys... Cost of Loving a Soldier!!! As any military wife knows any deployment is hard! So for those of you who are not chained by heart (Married) to a soldier I'm going to try to put in words how it feels to have him go into battle......The cost of loving a soldier!!! Here I lie cryin' unstoppably........thinkin' this may have been the last time I've seen my husband kiss and hug his 17month old daughter whom I once pictured him walking down the isle one day or tellin' his son that he's in charge to take care of mommy and sissy till his return.......I've watched him walk out the door.... thinking "I've sent him to his grave" and that I'll never get to see him again, kiss him, feel his touch, have him make me laugh even when I'm at my lowest.....I can't breath I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest!!!! I hold my head up everyday....I have to be strong for my kids........when they sleep I go numb starring into the darkness, sometimes sobbing till the tears run dry or i cry myself to sleep. I wake to feeling like a bubble eyed goldfish.....and it repeats nearly everyday. Not a second goes by that he doesn't cross my mind.....no matter that this is his 3rd deployment. It never gets any easier......only harder to watch him pack his gear....and walk out that door......you can only pray that you see him walk back in that door.....and take his son to ride his 4 wheeler and go camping like he promised.........or in the future...walk his daughter down the isle.....read them bedtime stories........show them how to hunt...or work on cars....or just be a redneck just like him....(hehee) I've been married to my soldier (the army) for 6yrs now.......I'll love him till the day I die and even after that!!!! So if your reading this pray for our soldiers....because they are sooooo much more than soldiers!!!!!!! Some gave all.......remember those who have fallen!!! Let them not be forgotten!!! Cause he/she was somebody's son,daughter,husband,wife,father or mother,family,or whole heart(life)!!!!! I have so much to say but am not able to put it into words.....maybe another day.........Thank you to all our troops and families!!! From one military wife to others God bless you all!!!!  

That was so beautiful 

:) I wrote that right after my hubby left.... 

very nice. 

Thats so sad. Makes me dread my hubby leaving in June. It was beautiful tho. =] 

If u are strong then ur husband will be stronger...I've come to realize that this time around....Hold ur head up high and keep busy....and have his castle ready to come home to .....along wit his queen :) :) 

My Husband leaves in June too, I dread him leaving especially since our Son is so young and when he gets back our Son will no longer be this tiny little baby. This will be my 4th deployment but the 1st one as a Mommy. Its going to be hard being a "Single Parent" but we have to be strong for our Husbands and Children. I know negative thoughts will often come to mind but I will look into the face of my Son and know that everything will be ok. If anyone ever needs a shoulder or just someone to talk to about how they feel I am here. 

my husband is the big red 1 and will be leaving in June and I am dreading it so bad. I cry now just thinking about it. I hope it get's eaier but to be honest it won't because me nad my husband are like the same person we are so close. All we can do is pray for him and each other to get thru this. 

my husband is the big red 1 and will be leaving in June and I am dreading it so bad. I cry now just thinking about it. I hope it get's eaier but to be honest it won't because me nad my husband are like the same person we are so close. All we can do is pray for him and each other to get thru this. 

my husband is the big red 1 and will be leaving in June and I am dreading it so bad. I cry now just thinking about it. I hope it get's eaier but to be honest it won't because me and my husband are like the same person we are so close. All we can do is pray for him and each other to get thru this. 

u guys can get through it...They don't say being an army wife is the toughest job for nothing:) let me know if i can help...